char's

2010-05-23T19:38:00.002+08:00

i really truely love you..

what am i suppose to do..

i feel lost at times..

i dont know what to do at times..

i'm only trying to make things better..

but it always turn out to be worse..

i dont like the way we are now..

i really dont..

i wish i could dig out my heart so you could see what i feel..

i really want you to know how i feel..

at times i am scared to face facts..

sometimes i question myself..

am i the problem here..?

it kept me thinking for days and nights..

i still dont know what to do..

am i the reason your reacting this way..?

am i at fault..?

i dont even bear to blame you..

cause iloveyou..

i really love you..

i hope you do to..

2010-01-29T20:09:00.002+08:00

i dont know whats your freaking problem ..
i am saying the facts..
i am sorry if i hurt u .. but u have hurt me more.
even if it is by words.. i cried more than u did ..
why must i feel sorry for u when u never feel sorry for me?
u did not apologise for what u did.
and u are demanding 1 from me .
u hurt me so much yet i dont tell u
but once i have hurt u . ur gonna tell the whole world.
is it fair or what? i just dont get it.

2010-01-26T11:22:00.002+08:00

i dont hate u , i just dont love u ..

i dont love any other guy when yr inside ..

i was only loving u ..

i agree . i was sad . but what can i do ?

u did nth wrong . and u dont have to ask for forgiveness..

u have no rights to say who suits me or what ever ..

i am athe one who can decide for myself..

wilson ? his a bitch . maybe i was just touched at that moment of time ...

after all i was thinking about the time . during sec 1 .

u singing to me on the phone..

thinking about the past just hurts alot..

thinking of u hurts more..

maybe leaving u was the best choice..

not hurting myself any further ..

i will go crazy if this carries on ..

maybe it was the past that made me so fed up ..

i am sorry .. i can forgive bout that but it can never be forgetten ..

the past just hurts too too much ..

loving u was the only thing i was thinking till sec 1 till u stead with me .

i thought of nth else .

sorry..

2010-01-23T11:49:00.002+08:00

i just hate exams alot.. is not that i fail or what
i just dun feel like going through it..
no matter how hard i try .. is always not enough for you..
i dont know why cant u just say u tried yr best or smth ..
i bet it will make me feel much much better ..
u make me feel so down .. which i hate it ...
maybe u dont know it .. just bcause i dun show
my feelings to u .. yeah .. so its my fault..
even if i tell u .. u will do nth .. ur gonna say the same thing

YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

hate this sentence ..
seriously hate it to the core...

2009-12-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

sorry i i ever disturb your life or what ..
i did not do it on purpose ..
i am realli realli sorry ..
just wanted to ask for songs..
and in the end ..
u forgotten all about me..
why .. i remember you very clearly..
why cant u just remember my name..
just my name .. i wont ask for more..
but why..
i dont know what is happening to me ..
why am i always feeling so..
wth...
i dont know how to explain lahs..
its killing my heart ..

2009-12-12T21:05:00.003+08:00

yeah.. nobody realli know what i am going through..
yeah.. seriously .. no 1.. not even u .. please..
yeah.. sometimes.. i hear stuff that may hurt me alot ..
deeply...real deep.. i will ..
urgh .. neh mind ..
i dun wish to tell anyone..
what i do.. yeah..
i dont know what to do now uhh ..
feeling so... yeah..
this is useless.. i dont know why..
i dont know why u people must...
ARGHH!!!

WHAT EVER lurhhs.
u better not QUESTIONG ME .
or i shall be dead :D

2009-12-08T12:08:00.002+08:00

shocking news!
omg freaking scary...
CS COMING OUT
maybe...
on this sunday..
but its not comfirm ..
omg..
i vehhhhhh scared >< omg ... i have no idea what to do uhh...
calling all his friends which i know out :D
i dunno if he will scold ehs..
scali he want meet me nias..
omg omg omg
what to do lahhs..
sit on the thinking chair and ..
think ..
think..
think...LOLS!
i'm going crazy
<33333

2009-12-07T13:29:00.003+08:00

rock on with life!!
hahas~
freaking bored these days ..
but . thanks to SOMEone .
he talks to me on the phone!
keep me company ~
so good right ?
so touched :D
hahas..
going out with fid this wed~
some feather-less chicken say that someone
will be sad on that day ?
she like spy lehs ~~

HAHAS
yeahh ..
nth to blog le lahs .
DUN ASK ME UPDATE !
i got nth to talk about
boring life :D

2009-11-16T14:34:00.003+08:00

1st ching soon~
2nd wilson~
and 3rd ..
its gonna be fidrina..
wtf is this?
why isit like that..
why must u all leave me !!!
especially ching soon..
why cant u just think ..
people say u go in how many times le..
why cant u just learn from a bloody mistake
why must u make people who worry for u cry..
than wilson ..
happily..
why must u like me..
it dont have to turn out this way...
yr the 1 st person who make me cry on the phone..
just because u sang quite a number of love songs..
i am a emotional freak..
yaya.. got touched and so..
i dont care how badly u sang.. it just touched my heart in someway..
and now..
fidrina..
i freaking no mood..
1st time i cry for a girl..
which is my freaking best friend.. wth..
i dun realli have the mood these days..
THOSE WHO READ THIS.
better not ask me questions..
not even how i am...
just shut up..
and dun force me to say it..
or i will ignore u for the rest of my LIFE!!!!!

2009-11-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

Back from camp yesterday xD!!!
So cool~
the camp was damn fun urhhs..
the kids are veh cute lorhs ..
how i wish i could take them home
stayed in the hotel for 2 nights .
and a night in the long house .
the long house was VEH COLD AT NIGHT LEHS!
i did not expect it lorhs><
slept with friends in the same room .
OMG~ talking about it ..
adillah went crazy , omg
adillah ~ if u are reading ~ u know what am i saying =x
HAHAS
lucky i am home ..
i can wake when ever i want to!!!
oinks~xD

2009-10-24T23:01:00.001+08:00

i've did my best...
what more did u wan from me...
i only want words to come out of yr mouth..
just to make me feel happy for that day..
why do u always say that..
i tried .. but i was never enough for u ...
i'm sorry ...

2009-10-12T16:37:00.002+08:00

i just hate it...

i regret knowing alot of people..
i always hurt people in the end...
why is that so...
i feel so unwanted ...
lost..scared...
why am i always like this...
i always seems to be happy to some people..
but .. i am not...
i wanna be happy when i am with anyone..
i dun wan them to see the sad side..
i am so sorry ...
i din know it will hurt u that much ...
i know my sorry wont patch things up..
so .. not asking anyone to forgive me ...
i just hope... those who like me ..
just give up please...
i will hurt u in the end...
i may seem caring to you ..
but i am a devil...
i will hurt u .. deeply ...
please stay away from me...
try to contact me lesser...
best is not to talk to me at all...

2009-10-03T15:59:00.004+08:00

heehee!! xD
SO sian ~~
so bored . exam lai le~~~
lalalas
i love you people xD~
i am being crazy~~~
my art exam~....
cfm cmi..
draw until so ugly~~ =(
who can help me DRAW T.T~~~~

2009-10-02T16:44:00.004+08:00

Lols.><
me being crazy ~
boredd~~~~
lalalas...

2009-10-01T17:28:00.002+08:00

WEE can work le. bloody com .. got virus..
zzz . ><

GANS ~
_________________________

Thomas-ghey (1)
Shaun-ghey(2)
Ryan-ghey(3)
kang wei-ghey(4)
jj- ENEMY!
jasmine- mii(mummy)
jacky-dii(daddy)
ryan-kor
daryl-kor
gaweeeeeee-kor
don-kor
wilson-kor
mans-kor
fikri-abang aku
____________________________
cant remember any more xD

:33333

2009-07-08T18:31:00.001+08:00

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

2009-07-05T21:36:00.002+08:00

Nae meoriga neomuna nappaseo
(I'm really, very foolish)
Neo hanapakke nan moreugo
(I know of no one other than you)
Tareun sarameun pogoittneun neon
(You're looking at someone else)
Ireon naema-eumdo moreugettji
(Yet you have no idea of my feelings like this)

Neoui harue naran eoptgettji
(I won't be in your days)
Tto chu'eokjoch'a eoptgettjiman
(I won't be in the memories either, however)
Neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
(Only you, I looked only at you)
Chakku nunmuli heureugoisseo
(And the tears keep coming)

Neoui dwaetmoseubeul poneungeotdo nan haengbokiya
(As I watch you walking past, I'm still happy)
Ajik naui ma-eumeul mollado
(Even though you still don't know my heart)
Kkeutnae seuch'ideusi kado
(I should stop this and go)

Niga neomu pogosip'eun nalen
(I really want to see the day)
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
(I'm withstanding the pain each day)
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
("I love you" is playing on my lips)
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
(Alone once again, crying for you)
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
(Alone once again, missing for you)
Baby, I love you, I'm waiting for you

Neoui harue nan eoptgettji
(I won't be in your days)
Tto kieokjoch'a eoptgettjiman
(I won't be remembered either, however)
Neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
(Only you, I looked only at you)
Honja ch'ueokeul mandeulgo isseo
(I'm making memories alone)

(This part HJ didnt sing)
[Naegen sarangiran areumdaun sangch'eokat'a
(Loving you is like having a beautiful wound)
Neoui yeppeun misoreul poado
(I look at your pretty smile also)
Hamkke nan utjido mothae
(But I cannot laugh with you)

Niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
(I'm thinking about you so much everyday)
Kaseum sirigo seulp'eun naleneun
(My heart is hurting in all these sad days)
Niga pogosip'ta ipgae maemdola
("I want to see you" is playing on my lips)
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
(Alone once again, crying for you)
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
(Alone once again, missing for you)
Baby, I love you, I'm waiting for you]

*Guitar Solo*

Bye, bye, never say goodbye
Ireohke chapji mothajiman
(Even though I cannot hold you like this)
I need you amu maldo mothae I want you
(I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you)
Paraedo dasi paraedo
(I keep on hoping too, I'll keep hoping)

Niga neomu pogosip'eun nalen
(I really want to see the day)
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
(I'm withstanding the pain each day)
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae ma)
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
(Alone once again, missing for you)

Niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
(I'm thinking about you so much everyday)
Kaseum sirigo seulp'eun naleneun
(My heart is hurting in all these sad days)
Niga pogosip'ta ipgae maemdola
("I want to see you" is playing on my lips)
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
(Alone once again, crying for you)
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
(Alone once again, missing for you)
Baby, I love you, I'm waiting for you

This is How i felt when yr with others...

2009-06-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

boys should be like cookie!
cookie is a dog .
boys should always be cookie .. cuz
no matter how much i scold cookie,
beat him ,
push him away ,
shout at him ,
kick him,
punch him ,
he will still come to you when you call him ..
he will love you for who you are...
no matter how u treat him ...
coming to you .. knowing that you are sad..
or in pain ...
he will always be there for you ...
Cookie is a special Dog ...
that i wanna keep foreva..

Still Loving You

2009-06-20T15:40:00.003+08:00

A boy who really loves a girl..
is willing to give up anything just for the girl ..
but the girl does not know that the boy is there..
the boy maybe suffering behind her back ..
he just wanted her to be happy ..
not to be sad .. he just wish that he could protect her
where ever she is ... and when ever it is ...
the girl may not know what is going on in his world..
but .. there is a strong love ...

Love make people shed tears~
Missing some 1 is horrible ..
loving that person maybe difficult..
but ..
.....choose to hang on....

2009-05-20T18:53:00.001+08:00

I miss him lots!!!

his mum told me that he can come out on sat and sun ~

and he can write letter to me~!!!

OMG!

i cant wait lorhs ~

PS horhs ~ blog abit dead~~~

THANKS TO SOME1!

2009-04-27T18:15:00.002+08:00

~TMR is the day people>

either .. Cry ~ Or go high and BE HAPPY!

tmr is the day ... that i will know how long he goes in ..

i realli miss him like @!#$!#$!#@$

i realli dunno how to explain this pain i am going through now~

i oni wish that he understands and change for the better~

i hope he can study hard and have a good future~ =)

Bye PEOPLES!

2009-04-15T10:01:00.002+08:00

Gahh ~ Ting keep asking me to update XD

so sian ~ last night i dreamt of Him !!

omg~.~

Chee kiat also inside~

Ryan also inside~

ALOT of people also inside~

i miss him alot sial !!!

Arghh! missing him right NOW ~

sad ehs...

2009-04-05T20:45:00.001+08:00

have ulcer~ pain like hell~

kinda boredddddd these days ~

shall keep this posst short =)

IMY

ILY

2009-04-03T14:54:00.002+08:00

today in school~

shuan and belle was so~ cold~~

after that was okays...

than after mother tongue ..

i almost cried because of my teacher!

urgh .. lazy explain uhs!

just sad.. counting the days slowly~

i love chuachingsoon~

i miss you~

2009-04-02T16:19:00.003+08:00

haish... cried in the toilet and class today~

i already started missing him~

i dont know what to do but cry...

i'm useless eh?

Last Words From You:

Take care of yourself~

i promise after i come out i wont forget u

no matter how hard the way is..

i will always love you..

(sadded part)

Love you too ..

i now going in the room le.

than straight go in boys home~

i love you chuachingsoon ~

i miss you alot~

2009-04-01T14:59:00.004+08:00

i dont know why am i so angry ~

with him =x urghh!

today cannot see him !

Tomorrow also cannot see him !

urgh!!!! Although i am angry...

i still love him aloot!!!!!

alot alot alot

ALOT alot alot~

why u SKIP school!

rawrs!

my anger is turning to sadness~

=( i love you )=

2009-03-31T16:34:00.002+08:00

Today i ALMOST cry in school today

but luckily i din !! hahas

my mood was sucky ...

after he told me that ...

on thursday .. after the 5-7 lesson ..

he will call me or his mum will call me

- HE calls- GOOD UH!

-MUM calls- Comfirm after put down the phone~

cry like HELLL!!!

i dont want that to happen...But

he told me during MT

'dear, iloveyou'

felt so touch! it was kinda random ~

i dun know why i cant accept the fact...

i just feel so happy when i am with him ...

and when i am typing all these out...

i dont know why ... but i am crying ...

dar ... i love you alot ~

i dont want u to go boys home~

i wan u so stick with me forever~

i really hope that happen~

STUDY HARD!!!!!!

ke yi yang wo!

hahas...

2009-03-30T16:26:00.001+08:00

heys! guess what!
my eyes hurt ~
cuz the SHAMPOO went into my eyes T.T
~u can call me dumb~
wash hair also dunno how wash properly~
hahas~
Today get to see him !
happy happy!
mr michael
he talked to me ~
he said i look better ~!
hahas~
wees~ cuz oni last night never cry~
hahas~ when wanted to start crying le~
CHUACHINGSOON called me~ so i bo pian~
cannot cry~ than i laugh alooottt!~.~
but he doesn't like it~
so i must STOP laughing on the phone?
so difficult~ !!!
i love him lotsss<3
i dun wan him to leave me ~
never and ever ~
wo aii ni <3

2009-03-29T08:44:00.002+08:00

My eyes hurt ...

before i slept .. my tears came down like waterfall!

i'm like crying every night before i sleep...

will i suffer like this for the next 2 years?

i just wanna love him ...

which Some~ people said that he will forget me once

he have gone in and out...

will you?

i realli realli hope not...

and i want to know what date are u coming out ..

i realli wanna know...

please tell me~

i hope u wont forget me if i wait for u

i know yr ex wait for u b4 ...

but mine is wayyyy longer~

haish... my eyes realli hurt alot!

2009-03-28T08:13:00.005+08:00

morning =/

slept for 13 hours sial~

so shoik

haish...i dont know why .. but ..

when ever i think of You....

i will cry .. when ever i lie on the bed

i will think of u and cry =(

i Lurve him <3

2years ...

after dinner ~ was in the car~

suddenly ... i thought of him ...

and i cried...

i dont know why ...

but i just did...

sometimes .. am scared ..

when he goes in ...

will he forget me?

i dont know why i am so deeply in love with him ...

ilurvehim<3

2009-03-27T14:56:00.003+08:00

Haishh .. he went for camp

only get to see him in the morning thats all..

than next monday than can see him ..

sian lorhs... gonna miss like siao..

can go crazy le...

i left no more tears!

Arghh~ just wanna tell him i love him

Alot~ but i cant~ he is away~ pulau ubin

dunno how spell lahs...

he off his phone also...

sunday than he will sms/call me~

i miss him~

i love him ~

Deeply~

stupid jj

talk until like that.. always make me angry

i jut worried about him cannot r?

i love him so deeply...

i missing him every moment ~

i'm veh scared and worried for him

iloveChuaChingSoon <3

LOVE

CHUA

CHING

SOON

2009-03-26T17:41:00.003+08:00

Today was not a very good day...

neither it will be tmr~

i will wait for you..

i dont know what will happen if u go in..

i dont know how should i face HER..

i feel scared without u ~

ATIMES!

sometimes i jsut wish u can be right beside me

smth i feel like hugging you

and never let you go~

i regret that i asked u to go away just now~

i really regret it ...

i was so scared i will cry infront of u ..

i really regret IT !

i cried after u left...

i am missing you right now~

~sorry for my small words ~

2009-03-25T17:04:00.000+08:00

Hahas ! today was like~ so Cool~

dunno what blog thingy ~ about basia~

3T1 and 3T2 ROCKS TOGETHER!

~T.O.G.E.T.H.E.R~

hahas.

Tomorrow is the day people!

but he got smth on ...

i dont know if he if going for that~

or going out me~

go out with meeee !!!

hehes xD

wai kit like kena bully by me ~

he will get beaten by me if he sits beside me!

BUT HE ALWAYS SITS BESIDE ME!

his my partner~

i pity him xD

sowwweeeeee~

cant wait for tmr <3

2009-03-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

wah~ today was like~ omg..

we colour the art paper like we under stress!

ALOT OF STRESS ! hahas . but we are not lahs.

NAPFA coming~ all my fats cmi le~

i cannot do standing board jump~

and incline pull upsssss!

COMFIRM FAIL LE!

haish~ all because of my fats~

BLAME THEM ! i mean IT!

today . after mother tongue~

he left the class 1st ~

it felt that he was leaving me~

foreva and eva~

but luckily not lahs

hehes xD

i'm in LURVEEE

2009-03-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

three more days ! >

Weeeesssss~~~^^

saw the pic he showed me today~

when i saw it ... it Stabbed my Hearttt

You dont have to hurt yourself ~

i dont want you to hurt yourself~

I lurve you soso much <3

school wasss GOOD !
cant believe it lorhs...

when claypot teach us~

the whole class was like~~~

So guai? all doing the work that was given~

when yuppieeee teaches~
Gahhh .. dun care lahs ... all sleep xD

i can inprove in my maths le xD

2009-03-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

nth much happened today~

But all i know...

TOMORROW GOT SCHOOL!!! yays!

can see him le xD

happy happy ~

Today my uncle treat us !

STEAMBOAT for EVERY1 xD

is actually for my mums bdae ~

Aiyurhs .. tired liaos ..

2009-03-21T13:35:00.000+08:00

i just want u to be happy =)

If your happy .. i'm happy =D

i will always try to be there for you

to love you and care for you =]

hearing yr voice just makes me so happy

like u said . how i wish i could stop the time

and be with u ~

i really hope your love is true .

i love you !

ALOT!

I dont know what yr thinking now.

but i wish u can just tell me the truth ,

how u feel ~ i wan you to share your

problems with me as i always share mine with you.

Love is very selfish .

i wan you to be my side

forever and ever

but i know... what is mine , is mine

what is not mine , its not .

2009-03-20T13:33:00.000+08:00

This is MY FIRST BLOG ! <33

i think is also gonna all about him

I am just waiting for this week to END!

so i can see momo ren xD

i miss momo ren alot!